urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loseb4061706 wedding day challenge loseb4061706 2005-10-18T18:52:37Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loseb4061706:1145 2005-10-18T18:52:37Z 2005-10-18T18:52:37Z Today is ok. My fiance ordered diet pills and i really want to take them, but i'm gunna fight the urge and do it naturally, i know i can.<br /><br />i'm trying my best to limit my carbs, and all i can think about is a boston kreme doughnut.... i'm such an oinker...<br /><br />I dont even like to drink water..... but iwill make myself.....<br /><br />I dont' like milk either...<br /><br />i guess i'm trying to do a modified version of weight watchers.... we'll see how it goes....<br /><br />school was good today, i really need to start working on my projects...<br /><br />Anyways, off i go to take a nap......later! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loseb4061706:999 2005-10-17T10:05:26Z 2005-10-17T10:05:26Z Monday<br />B-tortilla(wheat) with slice of skim monzerella pan warmed....<br />1c skim milk (7 pts)<br /><br />L-Tuna and fruit snacks(7 pts)<br /><br />S-1 c.grapes (1 pt)<br /><br />D-4 oz chicken and veggies with Thai Sauce (6pts)<br /><br />Total Pts: 21<br /><br />Walk of the pounds (2 miles)<br /><br />What do you guys think??? hope day one goes okay for me :) You are all so awesome, hope you have a great day, off to the hospital i go!!!!<br />**Lydia** urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loseb4061706:402 2005-10-16T14:05:24Z 2005-10-16T14:05:24Z the sound of the doctors over the loudspeaker Today is my last day of freedom.<br />The last day<br />i dont have to count calories<br />i dont have to exercize<br />i dont have to eat healthy<br />The last day<br />i can eat chocolate as much as i want<br />i can watch hours of tv sitting on the couch<br />i can go out to dinner with my fiance and order whatever i want.<br />The last day of my life... :)<br /><br />haha, i'm so just kidding. Tomorrow is October 17,2006... The day i will begin this journey/journal. It is 8 months away from my wedding day, and i want to lost 40 pounds. That adds up to 5 pounds a month, which i'm sure i could outdo, but i am going to start with this as my initial goal.<br />Let me give you some background...<br />I have always been a chubby gal.... (well after i hit puberty) i was always chubbier than the other girls my age, but along with that came boobs too, so i wasn't too teribly dissappointed. Recently my fiance moved in, and we go out to eat a lot.... and i've ballooned out to my biggest weight.... and i refuse to hit 200....<br />But here i am now..... 21, and i wear a size 12-14. i weighed 188 this morning, but i'm calling it 190. I do however get told that i don't look like i weigh this much, but this is the fattest i've ever been. Also i just dont feel healthy. I want so much to be healthy... and a little less to where i feel like i'm knocking on Lane Bryant's door.<br /><br />Also, my bridesmaids..... My fiance's 3 little sisters (all tiny) and my 3 best friends.... size 2, size 4, size 10....<br />and then you have my friends.. the beautiful...<br />plus sized bride....<br /><br />so i've tried Atkins... Failed.<br />Tried Weight Watchers... worked, but i gave up because i was too busy (what a cop out.. i know)<br />Gym membership (i'm just too busy to go.. cop out)<br /><br />My life is hectic i must say. I'm in my senior year of college studying to be a respiratory therapist. I graduate on May 5. I am in school Monday-Thursday 7a-3:30pm working alongside a therapist..... Then Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday (minus 1 weekend a month) i work 7a-7p at a hospital doing admissions (which is where i am right now) ***can't you tell i'm busy today***<br /><br />Anyways, So basically my life consists of school, studying for boards, work, and Planning this wedding.<br />'<br />I think i've been worrying so much about all of that... that i forgot to take care of myself.<br />Well thats in the past now...as tomorrow holds a new day.<br /><br />Tomorrow i will start counting calories and attempt to do weight watchers with some support from some friends.....<br />I hope to meet some of you that are struggling with the same weight loss issue, and maybe you know "motivate" each other.<br /><br />But for now... i'm off to eat my last day of freedom away!!!!<br /><br /><br />Lydia