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Tue, 18 Oct 2005 18:52:37 GMT

Today is ok. My fiance ordered diet pills and i really want to take them, but i'm gunna fight the urge and do it naturally, i know i can.

i'm trying my best to limit my carbs, and all i can think about is a boston kreme doughnut.... i'm such an oinker...

I dont even like to drink water..... but iwill make myself.....

I dont' like milk either...

i guess i'm trying to do a modified version of weight watchers.... we'll see how it goes....

school was good today, i really need to start working on my projects...

Anyways, off i go to take a nap......later!

Today's plan Day 1

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 10:05:26 GMT

Monday
B-tortilla(wheat) with slice of skim monzerella pan warmed....
1c skim milk (7 pts)

L-Tuna and fruit snacks(7 pts)

S-1 c.grapes (1 pt)

D-4 oz chicken and veggies with Thai Sauce (6pts)

Total Pts: 21

Walk of the pounds (2 miles)

What do you guys think??? hope day one goes okay for me :) You are all so awesome, hope you have a great day, off to the hospital i go!!!!
**Lydia**

Last day of Freedom

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 14:05:24 GMT

Today is my last day of freedom.
The last day
i dont have to count calories
i dont have to exercize
i dont have to eat healthy
The last day
i can eat chocolate as much as i want
i can watch hours of tv sitting on the couch
i can go out to dinner with my fiance and order whatever i want.
The last day of my life... :)

haha, i'm so just kidding. Tomorrow is October 17,2006... The day i will begin this journey/journal. It is 8 months away from my wedding day, and i want to lost 40 pounds. That adds up to 5 pounds a month, which i'm sure i could outdo, but i am going to start with this as my initial goal.
Let me give you some background...
I have always been a chubby gal.... (well after i hit puberty) i was always chubbier than the other girls my age, but along with that came boobs too, so i wasn't too teribly dissappointed. Recently my fiance moved in, and we go out to eat a lot.... and i've ballooned out to my biggest weight.... and i refuse to hit 200....
But here i am now..... 21, and i wear a size 12-14. i weighed 188 this morning, but i'm calling it 190. I do however get told that i don't look like i weigh this much, but this is the fattest i've ever been. Also i just dont feel healthy. I want so much to be healthy... and a little less to where i feel like i'm knocking on Lane Bryant's door.

Also, my bridesmaids..... My fiance's 3 little sisters (all tiny) and my 3 best friends.... size 2, size 4, size 10....
and then you have my friends.. the beautiful...
plus sized bride....

so i've tried Atkins... Failed.
Tried Weight Watchers... worked, but i gave up because i was too busy (what a cop out.. i know)
Gym membership (i'm just too busy to go.. cop out)

My life is hectic i must say. I'm in my senior year of college studying to be a respiratory therapist. I graduate on May 5. I am in school Monday-Thursday 7a-3:30pm working alongside a therapist..... Then Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday (minus 1 weekend a month) i work 7a-7p at a hospital doing admissions (which is where i am right now) ***can't you tell i'm busy today***

Anyways, So basically my life consists of school, studying for boards, work, and Planning this wedding.
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I think i've been worrying so much about all of that... that i forgot to take care of myself.
Well thats in the past now...as tomorrow holds a new day.

Tomorrow i will start counting calories and attempt to do weight watchers with some support from some friends.....
I hope to meet some of you that are struggling with the same weight loss issue, and maybe you know "motivate" each other.

But for now... i'm off to eat my last day of freedom away!!!!

Lydia

Weight Loss Lydia

blahhhh

Today's plan Day 1

Last day of Freedom